and scribbles became solutions - And its amazing how your world can be turned upside down by just the simplest of things, like the way the sun hits her eyes, and the way she smiles when she thinks no one is watching. And what I wouldn’t give to prove to her its worth it. And what I wouldn’t give to prove to her we’ll make it. And I guess it kinda scares me, the thought of you not here right beside me. Well frankly its frightening, imaging your face as a stranger’s. And im beginning to learn that not everything that’s perfect works out, that not everything that’s meant to be actually is.

burial of braddock - So lets get our laughs in now before our hearts begin to scream to be let out. So lets take a breath that’s deep and pray this air doesn’t choke us with its honesty. Softy, gently, we have come undone. How do we put it back together? It’s a fair question, but I don’t know the answer. Enough of this stepping around the subject. We should both know where we stand by now, and if we don’t then I guess that should tell us something, cause unspoken answers and lies on tongues just don’t count.

yeah ask me that again i dare you - and though it seems so urgent, its not. im refusing to remember, its not like i forgot. i juxta-pose these questions against answers ive been juxta-giving and decide, "yes i am ready." and its all so exciting and brand new. the beauty of this situation is im remembering things i never thought i knew. and im thinking as our fingers intertwine, "im perfectly happy for the very first time."

im sorry for everything - And theres nothing id love more than to stay and laugh these hours away, but time is pressing and I really should go. See, ive already fucked up more in just three short days than I really thought was possible, and id like to stop while im not so far behind. And id love to believe that you could forget all these things that you think ive done to you. And so for the sake of what we had and what we couldn’t keep up, ill say im sorry for everything.

map stations, napkins, and straws - I’m so grateful that we still connect like the pieces of a puzzle that when done turns out to be the picture your mom took of us at graduation where we’re laughing so innocently, unaware of the vast changes that were so rapidly approaching. Not realizing that what’s happening right now will eventually be what happened then. Like writing out movie scripts, and planning out the shots, getting too excited and then talking way too much. Like that one day in Richmond, we just couldn’t stop laughing. The week at the beach, wouldn’t trade it for anything. So many things that we’ve said and we’ve done, I treasure them all each and every one.

prime property available - Maybe its better this way, its less complicated. Maybe ive been putting this off, but maybe I haven’t. Maybe its you. And I can’t hardly wait to see you. Picking locks and mouthing words that we’d heard somewhere before, we just couldn’t remember where. And it turns out the door was already unlocked and the words always rhymed. So I guess it was ok. So I guess it was alright. Changing lanes too fast—that’s what it added up to. So sing a song that no one knows except you. So say some words that no ones ever heard before.

ive got an idea - Play today, tomorrow is much further away than it seems. Lets laugh and dance and clap and lets sing about a girl whos spinning in her own little world, laughing with such sincerity. December, when the air hurts to breathe, and remembering you doesn’t feel much better. And though it seems im bordering on hypocrisy, I really think im rapidly approaching the brink of revelation, im begging for holy absolution, smiling with such humility.

im a coloring book - Who am I to pretend that I know you well enough to kiss you goodbye at the end of the night? And who am I to pretend that I could offer you more than the rest of those guys that youre always talking to? And would it be ok if we just sat here in silence and wasted the rest of the day? Would it be ok if I told you that I had something important to say? What would say if I said that I hoped that we could stay close for always? Who am I to pretend that I deserve this, to justify my desire with excuses? Who am I to pretend that one day I could be somebody you admired with all of your heart. Color me in with blue, try to stay in the lines. We’ve got souvenirs, if you wanted to see them. We’ve got scars, if you wanted to see them.

theres no good way to say this - No, there’s no good way to say this, so ill say it right out: I fucked this one up. Yeah, this one’s on me. You presented the facts so unaccusingly. So don’t try to stop me, I’m claiming the blame. We say so many words, but they all the same. And it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. And I’m spinning around just contemplating the view of a world without love, of a world without you. How hypocritical of me, yes that’s true.

and that sunrise will be beautiful - What can I say that I havent said before? Hurrying around the corner of the building, bundled in mittens and vest, I keep my eyes to the sky. On the horizon behind me there is black, then purple, blue, grey, white, then orange on the horizon in front of me. There are two single stars left in the sky, one is you, the other is me. They are on opposite sides of the sky. The orange turns to red and pink. Streetlights wink out one by one. My breathe mists in front of my eyes. I will wait here for the sunrise, frozen in time, for the rest of my life. I will wait for you for the rest of my life. And that sunrise will be beautiful.

once it chased dr. lane into the very town itself - And im waiting so patiently, with no expectations this time, no assumptions, no nothing. And how many times can we say the same words twice? I suggested the car but youre the one who took the wheel. Driving with your eyes closed doesn’t get you anywhere you need to go. So lets punch the gas and open our eyes. And im waiting so patiently, with no expectations this time, no assumptions, no nothing. Lets place our fingers in between each others and let that simple touch carry us through the rest or our lives. Lets touch the palms of our hands to our faces and just smile.